quiet too long

it's been awhile
since gone quiet
for this long
and I don't mind
except I hoped to
have this volume
filled and instead
it is starting to fall apart
didn't even realize it
until I opened it tonight
and saw ten days
without a recorded thought
to document the day
end up at a place I sat
early twenty years ago
and find myself alone here
and it's a lot less smokey
then it was back then
it's been awhile since
you could smoke anywhere
indoors too many days
skipped distracted with all the work
physical in one place
computer work at home
for my brother from
another mother
all the distractions
have led me to be quiet
too long...