lifted in light

cutting through tonight
with this light
lifted from this position
down and to the left
still too cold to call
it spring out on the front
porch while backyard
gets a new fence
maybe I don't trust the wild
life that's why it's called
wildlife no?
cutting through tonight
with this light
saber tooth thought chewed
up in the mind cutting
through tonight with extra
light lifted beyond the sound
of travel not far off
sounds of the wildlife
in the backyard fisher-cat
with no fence to separate
it's a no-brainer
why the front porch
gets a look a little more
elevated than the spot near
the fire pit or garden
those are the daytime
positions cutting though
the extra night
with new light...

this down time

spring peepers on leap day
thought I might forget
turning down time
into writing everything
down time
and I swear the peepers
heard my thought
because silence now rules
the moment
hum of the highway far off
and then one by one the sounds return
two then three and can't hardly
wait until those nights where
there will be too many to count
leap day and it's my eleventh
probably the best leap day
to date no doubt
elevation helps
sharing the street
with my first ever address
forty years ago
who would have imagined
this kind of down time
a moment to remember
life before distractions...

TodayIsTheDay #12

no right to complain
letting the height
challenge the mind
and appreciating the view
today is the day
watched the sun set
into the distance
and the tops of the clouds
were two or three shades
of purple only light
remaining at the highest
points seen
today is the day...

an extra day

an extra day
probably spend it
recording thoughts
wondering how many
leap years have I written on
only lived through
ten until tomorrow
an extra day
probably work early
home by early afternoon
who else is going to stare at the sky
and wonder what all the rest
might be thinking about
especially when they say nothing
always something can't be nothing
when given an extra day
and only half of it busy
to make the living as they
say we all need to do to survive
there is a better way
and maybe it will come to me
on the extra day...

personally thinking

personally thinking
on a free society
a stateless one
without authoritarian
control without consensus
reality instead encouraging
individuals to pursue
happiness personally
thinking on a free society
that may only exist in the mind
realistically already have
that authoritarian system
with the illusionary two
sided coin spending no time
on helping anything but
itself personally
thinking on freedom
allowed only by the self
knowledge is searched for
and found not taught or told
personally thinking on
the freedom of this pen
how many pages torn
until knowledge and
freedom found...

eyes inward spin backwards

inspired by words
and the mind turn
the eyes inward spin
backwards remember all
the enemies
left in the past
passed right on by
still occasionally
walk by the thoughts
in the long mind hallways
what's the rest of the world
doing forgot to check in
before I checked out
for the night buried
head in books
then pillows
who the hell is putting all these
thoughts here and do they
arrive while sleeping
then I spend the day
trying to unravel
the thoughts only to come upon
the same chore again tomorrow
good thing I am
inspired by words...

this kind of rainy day

sometimes
this kind of rainy day
can cloud the mind
up especially if pre-
clouded with worry
at times
usually
for no reason
sometimes
this kind of rainy day
can be
quiet a relief
compared to one year ago
the clouds begin
to lighten up
as do I
as the day moves
onward...

until the proper month

after all these days
still trying to figure out
what any or all of this means
after all these years
learning no one knows
and we are probably not
supposed to know
it might blow our minds
all at once everyone understands
and it might be too hard
for the earth to handle
after all these hours
still watching the sun
slowly move out of view
no one will argue
the days are getting longer
season of rebirth merely
around the corner
after all these minutes
somehow still not cold
these warmer days
tease us until
the proper month...

TodayIsTheDay #11

two days
with sun
actually
made it
to the ocean
still think that
it is important
despite
ridiculously
cold wind
today is the day
up early
before
sun up overhead
usually crash
midday
pushed right through
made it
to the ocean...

might as well be the self

don't even want
to pause
sunlight side of my face
as I write these thoughts
somehow transmitted through
it's warmth but I have no proof
so I will simply enjoy
the moment the foot falls asleep
and so could I to the sounds
around the birds tune
seems to have a little confusion
warmth a little early
no one is complaining
as I put more words before
new eyes today
all the months and years of thoughts
mashed together and planned
presented as random
and truthfully as random
as they come to the mind
just want to pursue the truth
don't want the newer generations
to give up hope that truth will be found
when the mind's eye finally opens
to see what can be seen
because it will be seen
don't even want to pause or
take a breath without recording
that thought with words
and only truth spilling
on to the page prolific nearly
everyday like a younger CB
with only coffee to drink
again I stumble without
the proof just these words
painting the thoughts
the mind produces
no matter the shape
would like to be at the center
of something might as well
be the self...

WriteOn #6

seems like days since
sunlight has been this bright
outside is as warm as it looks
with a slight breeze
and a bright spot too
on the table I write on
even yesterday brought
colder hands than today
and a seemingly magnified light
it almost feels like spring
in the northeast it's never
that simple remember February
twenty fifteen or even April fools day
in ninety-seven these days can
only be called a winter pause
or another thought to
write on...

insane complexity

the wind
changed everything
warm air
blows across the page
her question was something like
'is there anything you will accept
without questioning?'
only my questioning of everything
without hesitation I said
a lot like saying the only thing
that is constant is change
as it happens every minute
every day new information discovered
proves some right and others wrong
if it's there to be seen
it will be seen
until then theory and faith
wait in the wings
for a flight to witness with eyes
and within can be seen too
simply a different type of eye
held by the mind of this
insanely complex creation
and the wind is now bringing rain
sideways and it can be heard howling
through the woods behind my spot
directly at over and around the house
as quick as it came it is gone...

zero to fifty/two days

it's my Friday
no work for the next two days
but it's Monday for everyone else
enjoying the front porch as snow
falls they say it will be fifty degrees
tomorrow which means twenty-four
hours will bring us from below
zero to fifty in two days time
about twenty-two degrees right now
welcome any warm weather always
never enough in the northeast
snow will continue until
rain wakes me in the early morning
hoping to be up
and productive tomorrow...

continue to rise

could drop below zero
so I have to step it up
and go sitting up above
the snow elevated not only
in location but also
in mental situation
better than most
not a lot to cloud the head
these days except the cloud
created around this center
like a record not as cold
as anticipated close to single
digits and suddenly hot coffee
gone and chilled will probably
drop lower as I continue to rise...

meant to calm

got to start
it up outside
day after the storm
snow that remains
glows dull in the night
beyond the porch
probably continue inside
where it's always warm
and the scent in the air
is meant to calm
not offend somewhat accepted
at least tolerated
all the smiles keep it warm
at all times still get it
going on the front porch
tonight right where it began
smaller then and different
now knowing more of what's
to know and the wind chimes
all stand still frozen like this
hand as it moves anyway...

the warm before the snow

well into the fifties today
tonight still high forties
fear in the air is impending snow
handled multiple blizzards
last year three to six inches
isn't anything comparatively
most likely will start as rain
until it gets cold enough
we shall soon see
as we know how fast time does pass
ten minutes since sickness
took over but it's actually been three days
where does the time go
or is it that which is
truly what it is
it's time and it never stops
perpetually ever beginning
until we end
and time never stops
just new thinkers appear
to continue to wonder
and appreciate
the warm before the snow...

TodayIsTheDay #10

wind that flips the pages
before I can put ink
on them finally began something
paused too long ago
as if I didn't care
but do and the wind picks up
again as if on cue
the air is cold and they say
rain will follow but right now
nothing but a steady wind
pausing only to catch it's breath
maybe today is the day
had to trick my own mind
into something I didn't want to do
for no apparent reason
and it can only help
today is the day forced myself
to believe that and work harder
than ever to overcome
obstacles and be a better person...

move to think

still thinking
sitting so still
trying to let
the sickness pass
hours turning simply
into more hours
catching as much rest
waking to repeat
the same still thinking
on that next move
life's chessboard
every morning a new game
so still had to get outside
clear night sky had
to give it a look
moon quarter lit
still illuminating
the night darkness
the air is warmer than
usual even when the moon
light makes it seem cooler
and maybe it really is
stranger than fiction
still thinking on
everything considered
real on the day
today disappeared
for an entire day
couldn't think
but still had to move
to think...

barely feel right

better than this time
last year no snow
piled high and actually
found some time
to put down some words
last year this month
didn't write a thing
must've been shoveling
all that snow
better than last year
at this time
the sun did no good
with all the snow
still trying to recover
haven't been sick
like that in years
some sort of virus
went right through
the family one by one
still barely feel right...