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had he not turned around

headed back to the springs

might have missed birth of G

the baby G nearly 24 hours

without a name

that's gangster

not really

nothing concluded

on the birth

of nephew number two

no idea what kind

of wonderful this baby

was born into

still nothing concluded

millions of moments

missed all the fatherhood

thoughts directed my way

it might be what I need

or not

nothing concluded

one step at a time

Saturday trip out west

at last summer in Crestone

must be as beautiful

as the family

brother brought

out into the middle

of nowhere and made it

his somewhere

nothing concluded

elevated like never before

nearly too high

needs to take the trip to the curb

nothing concluded

another night...

end of a moment

moments of meditation

a moth enters the area and sits

and then that moment has ended

and the voices outside don’t help

revisiting that quiet place

within the mind

only those who seek

have any hope to find

understanding we may have lost

at birth finding it tough

thinking about the future

of the earth…

driving too much

708/2005 1030pm

there are always

a few more thoughts

that this kind of night

will shake out of the mind

wind in the trees

after and during

a heavy rain

left leg

ninety degrees

foot falling asleep

over right knee

trip over that

when realizing

and waking too quick

there are even

thoughts driving

cigar lit in hand

punched out

thirty minutes

no privacy

police behind

until back to work

the day didn’t bring

the pen to work

to record the thoughts

at the moment

no privacy

carriage guy wonders around

the lot trying to think

of something to say

noticing a random window open

cigar smoke out the sunroof

shouldn’t even waste

the fuel driving too much

as it is…

the general lives

down at the bus stop an orange carriage from
the Home Depot it's the general's only possession
aside from his spray bottle
and the store owner may repossess
at times but he always seems to get it back
stashed in random parking lot bushes
that occur every time they pave another wooded area 
for the newest strip mall
but this one isn't the newest
and the hiding spot isn't the best
he somehow always has his carriage
today I saw the general
sitting on the pavement
next to and under his orange carriage
didn't see his face
only one time seen the general's face
scarred as if burned
he's one of the many homeless on the east side of
this city of champions
so there are many who beg 
to differ with the title the city holds 
and the championship
they are lucky to have shoes in this city
at least the general lives on...

act to distract

another attack

act to distract

from what’s really going on

elsewhere it’s all barbaric

how many brave dead souls

for a lie

another attack

act to distract

and create more fear

in the hearts of those

travelling anyone notice

the hike in gas prices

how many dead now

another attack

act to distract

wherever you are

riding the train

driving a car

how much by the end

of the war won’t end

white house fenced in for a reason

to keep the secrets in

another attack

act to distract

realizing the end of freedom

or blind to everything

really going on…

after zero hour

after zero hour

nearly half over

the head of some

will take time

to realize

his purpose

is to stimulate

thought

all over the place…

reality consideration

it may be one of the only ways

he can stay relaxed unwind

and not get hurt in the process

only sword he carries is this pen

one hundred percent most of the time

brand new bandana

pulled down over an extra large forehead

around four years of knotted hair

it'll keep him sane despite all the rain

two and a half hours and everything seems the same

so much for taking photos of the dawn

the rain has ruined that idea

before it actually becomes a reality

consideration and the wind tonight

rattles the windows of the porch

where he sits wondering what the sky

looks like high above the storm

start it one day and finish it the next

only minutes apart when reality is given proper

consideration and cross-eyed tired and dreaming

of stars on the new moon auspicious

to the newest member of the family

born into this world on a seven

the reality of still life on the porch

becomes a consideration once the ground

is completely saturated and morning

remains anticipated...

after all it's what i mean

after all this time expired
as he splashes water on his face
to try to come to grips with where
it might be going to be tough
to force himself down behind some screen
if you know what I mean
after all no one ever asked him what he meant by meditation as blunt
as he can be sitting under and in front of fans
trying to keep cool under all these humid nights
maybe you know what I mean
after all have turned the page on tonight
closed eyes until tomorrow comes naturally
nothing is forced to be anywhere but where it is
do you know what I mean
and what if he came at you
without warning blazing thoughts
pens switch hand ambidextrously penning thoughts
others may never stop to notice just as powerful
as the smell of roses
do you know what I mean
after all it's what I mean
to say and somehow get off track
like a runner with somewhere else to be
reality strikes twice him then me
what do I mean
after all of us is all he must trust
nirvana or bust
a drawing of inspiration
drawn but more
after all is said and done
it's what I do it for
do you know what I mean...

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it's possible he will miss

the birth of the second

and he promises he won't

rush when he gets word

it's possible that three hours

is too long of a ride

to try to sprint to the beat

the labor happy healthy

really all that matters

safe passage to the life

nothing concluded

to be continued

on until some truth

is revealed hours

might pass before any

understanding is reached

from where he stands

far from the brother

he grew up with that entire

part of his life seems

that far away as

the dog barks

nothing concluded

taking the silence

from the warm night air...