quiet now(for the record)

the house is quiet now

sleeping on the couch

he’s writing in the basement

always will be

for the record

the house always seemed

quiet from the street…

never wanted to be(for the record)

no idea

what is going on

an eye sore and admittedly

the pain behind it all

taking too many chances

like pills they say will make me

feel like myself again

point me in the right direction

never knew myself

still don’t

fix myself find health

make wealth

for the record

the hole is too deep

can’t even spend too much

time discussing

and I am disgusting

myself I know this much

for the record

became the guy I never

wanted to be

said I would never be

didn’t know how much strength

it would take to avoid that hole

can’t escape

might take years…

five years ago(for the record)

for the record

five years ago
standing on the sidewalk
falling into love
and knew that it was real
twenty-four hours
changed too much
just as well not think
too much anymore…

the worst(for the record)

not afraid

of what comes out
only afraid of the hurt
it will cause her
 
for the record
breaking my own heart
inconsequential
no one is gonna hear
the song I sing
some say for better
or for worse
and then I am just
the worst
you could imagine…  

from there to here(for the record)

for the record

cross-eyed and dangerous
early morning drive
not the same
wish I really knew
how to get there
from here…

for the record
undeniable
multi-personed
dangerous…

not the best(for the record)

for the record

I am not the best
or anywhere close
as once I had imagined…