just decide

can't just decide
to write stories
when all I get
are these smaller bursts
random thoughts
micro stories of places
and persons that may
or may not exist
somehow probably exactly
what I should do
and it's probably that easy too
standing in the kitchen
even though everyone
is in bed and there is no one
to talk to and it's okay
the next two days will be nothing
comparatively speaking
most likely take myself
way too serious at times
should know my place
I do not perform surgery
or build structures that need to be safe
I stack fruit and think a lot
have to decide each day
how I am going to approach it
each day doing better
than the previous
can just decide
to have a good day...