decision flashbacks

sometimes I get these intense
memory flashbacks of moments
in my life when I definitely made
the wrong decision
if I had the other decision to make
how might things be different
who could know who could have known
at the time even though some did
what ifs seem to always come too late
one decision comes back more than most
and most likely always will
no need to get into it really
will always wonder
if what I believe to be
the worst decision of my life
was made differently
how things might have turned out
slightly stranger maybe
maybe not as strange as it is
or right where I am
where am I again
constantly asking and wondering
who is listening when I finally
realize I am right back at the beginning...