no matter

how long will it last
time I thought like this
wall came crashing down before
my eyes could tell me
that all will be well soon
and thoughts create
disruption and in the middle
again sitting how can I reach
the edge impossibility
always on the outside
looking into what cannot be reached
from where I stand
not so sturdy
as the guru
and they don't see him the same
as I
out under sky wondering
thundering and rain
no matter no movement. . .