doesn't seem real

when there are only a few
pages left in a book
I am filling
the rush of completion
is upon me
and I want to put
everything else on hold
to finish the task at hand
even if I know it could
still take days
to be done and onto the next
chapter another pile organized
nicely to flip through
in the future
thought that doesn't exist
until I put it here
what if you don't know
I exist maybe you do
and wonder where I went
but I have been right here
all along or so I thought
anymore questions
might have to wait until
further discussion volume
seventy doesn't seem
real yet...