as ugly as pretty can be

wishing to cut out the memory completely

erase the entire action maybe even

eliminate and forget the whole year

oh seven up until the fool’s day twenty twelve

biggest mistake no longer can dwell

not one more moment of hate

the worst feeling there is to feel

and far too much feeling at all

for a subject that has no feeling

no compassion and oblivious to reality

product of the environment created around

some ugly thought of being entitled

or just an ugly thought

in this opinion which is the only one that matters

when the facts are lined together

like the kind of page unused

like a brain unused to think and more

to manipulate those around

to suit some needs and wants

that don’t ever make sense

so glad to be done in that area

of the world right down the street

in the middle of some hell I created

and had to be ripped from it

by an enemy showing the real

enemy was the one who kicked me from the bed

made too much noise while sleeping

resting to make more plans to manipulate

and well I guess it’s a good thing

the subject has a mirror to show how pretty

but I finally found the mirror which

showed me how ugly that pretty could be

let it be done only days from final

possible sighting with any reason for interaction

it will be done never was who

seen by this subject with skewed vision

and one goal to keep the look pretty

despite the old ugly inside…