destroyed mind

this mind is destroyed
so much at stake
every day patience
worn thin as these pants
I sit in day after day
shoes torn on the sides
barely covering the right foot

this mind is destroyed
rerunning through all
these mistakes and hurt brought
on others time after time
flipping through old thoughts
trying to make them new again

this mind is destroyed
by only me and in front of me sits
the mistakes I have yet to make
and the people I have yet to hurt
truly hope none of these
bad thoughts hold onto this
destroyed mind

this mind is destroyed
daily to make room
for new creative genius
emerging from under clouds
and heavy rain
the sun was shining
all day long…