wondered what was wrong

coordinated effort to eliminate

the threat of embarrassment

ashamed of the character

barely sharing space

not sharing thoughts anymore

acting out of total disgust

on the edge for months

until eyes met with

an unrecognizable look

over and over  the moment

sitting at the kitchen table

wondering what was wrong

surprised to be on the outside

looking into the spot I worked

so hard to be at

maybe deserved a little more

then what was presented

could be wrong

many kitchen tables

in the last thirty days

each one bringing out

different thoughts

some old some new

to these eyes these thoughts

jah prayers presented

for over-standing events

that brought eye to each spot

away from comfort’s spot

carved out now and portable

always wondered what was wrong…