those nights

and then there are those nights

when I don’t feel like going anywhere

or doing anything

sitting in a cold dirty restaurant

about all I can muster

the wind chill outside

makes it feel like thirty below

and my face might feel

like it might crack

and then there are those thoughts

that I can’t explain

and no one I know is around

if the train would stop

I would jump off

feet first tuck in roll

or something out of a movie

like standing in a lit hallway

waiting for some door to be open…