sick ones

just one of the sick ones
when eyes met what was
the thought two years
later you would hope to know
instead we doubt it all
and resort to thinking
the we might be sick ones
who will be looked over
as part of the human experiment
and the crazy doctors
line up to cash these checks
while we all try to figure out
what it could possibly
be keeping happiness away
one of the sick ones
sucked dry to the bone
by many who are more like
sponges absorbing it all
and always remembering
getting close
and being close
only results in being
left empty when the experiment
has ended and like the dream
and isn’t initially believed
but must be for someone’s sake
and of course I can admit weakness
but not defeat or realization
of some kind of mistake
and of course bringing
it all upon myself which
is part of the experiment
and I just cannot understand
how contradiction so heavy
and extreme can be accepted
as real and maybe not alone
in being confused
just one of the sick ones…