completely gray

before it turns completely gray

giving thanks for breath and for this day

cancel all thoughts set to bring it all down

into the summer hallway escape the frown

memory lost what’s done is done

sweating it out until the day is gone

only thoughts of the here and now

and it might get harder still make it somehow

once the sun shines and fine tunes this

feel the warm breeze and the sun kiss

and the energy poured out

ringing and endless shout

rising higher to a new height

no longer deny the burning fight

directly rising with the sun

not sure though when I think I won

or lost or passed or failed

onto all this new thought mind impaled

it’s only what I know of what is new

can’t even understand how I pulled through

the thick clouds above down to the thin

air below creeping slowly blood under skin

burning tears

washed out fears…