must be crazy

deserve the degradation
trust me
the nightmares were reality
until they put away
the criminal I must be
crazy to think
survival was sustainable
had it gone on any longer
the rage wouldn't have been containable
and that means I couldn't hold it
but just because I lost it all
doesn't mean I folded
won't ever give up
on who I know I am
loud at times
doesn't mean I am yelling
might even think I am
way out there
only truth out now telling
the difference
and the lies from all the snakes
nearly choked out
with so many mistakes
standing on this pile
of ridiculousness
and all I can do is smile...