ode to the steps

pushing buttons just to see

how much I can take

the heaviest weight

keep piling it on top

you can't crush me

no matter how loud you get

no matter what you say

you won't break me

don't know how I fit into this life

even when I think I do I don't

but I do know I will outlast

both of them

and smile on the other side of right now

smile right now but no one

around to see how much better

since then when truly alone

in the basement every night

and my own bed every night

sharing space is so much better but

day time sometimes impedes

closeness can't worry just be patient

and I will come out on top sure of it

no matter what type of bond

they think they have and will never have with me

facing all the challenges steps of progression

through unlearning what I thought I knew

but don't and won't break like trees

in the breeze bending with ease

praying on knees for relief of pressure put on

standing tall no matter what comes next

the steps won't trip me up

firmly knowing I am where I need to be

understood and respected not

tolerated and disrespected whenever possible

two cents put in and won't buy my ear

for any amount of time wasted walked all over

and realizing even the rug has a purpose

at times wondering how it got under the steps...